11 Months

It doesn't seem possible that it's 11 months since we lost Chris. I don't know how we have made it this far. We have been through a lot since I last posted anything here. We moved, made some changes in lifestyle, been through some ups and downs, have continued to grieve for Chris, and have grown some what. I can't believe that we have come as far as we have and I can only hope that we continue to grow.
Today was hard, nothing to do at work, so lots of time to think, and remember. I can remember that day like it just happened, but I try not to. It's too hard, to fresh, too there. I wrote a poem for Chris, first time I've ever done that. I will have to publish it I guess. It's just one more way to get something out. I'm continuing to work on my dissertation and can't believe the things that people write about parents who have lost children. Just when I think that they are all idiots someone actually writes something that makes sense, and every once in a while someone writes something that really strikes a cord with me. There are a few people that get it. It makes me wonder if they might have lost a child, or a sibling. It seems that some have insight into what it's like, and I wonder if they saw their parents go through something like this.
So another month has come and gone, and we will get through September, trying to remember, and trying not to. But we will remember, and when we get to the end we will celebrate Chris's life with a wake. We will sing and laugh and cry and celebrate and remember our Mopigeon.